Drats! It's the hols, and I'm down with a cold, flu and coughs. I know it will take me more than a week to recover fully from this. It's the eve of the Chinese New Year, like always, we've been invited to the Lim's household for gathering cum makan session. But that's gonna be at like, after 7pm. 

Thought about "cabot-ting" up North this hols but we didn't. Coz we didn't plan anything and what's more with my bad health condition. Ain't got no mood for anything.

I'm typing this from the computer in the lounge room at my workplace. OHorrr, still got time to blog!!

My other colleagues are in their "workrooms" so the lounge is pretty quiet at this time of the day. My young ones has to sit for the SRT. So, I'm free to bum around for about an hour.

But I'm soooooooo tired. The H2O drink that I had earlier had no effect whatsoever in keeping me awake. I tell you, I'm going to doze off later during the staff meeting. ~faint~

I pray to the ONE to give me the strength and patience to be able to come up with the most suitable solution to my confusion.

Confused about what I really wanna do. I'm at the verge of contemplating... to quit my current job. Sigh. The people there are very nice, very accommodating and inviting. I will feel very bad if I were to just leave; after all the troubles they had went through to help me. It's just the beginning of the term and I'm already starting to taste that familiar bitterness in my mouth as I'm starting to feel that I got off on the wrong foot with PArents, in particular. 

My current job, aiya...I'm paid half of what I used to get but I have to carry out duties almost similar to a full-timer. Please help me to remind myself why I quit full-time to join as a part-time in the first place! Sheesh. I can hear my spouse chanting quit...quit...quit...quit. Yes, he is supportive in that sense. It's true what an ex-colleague, who quit only after 3 days of work(!) there, said that our colleagues are very nice but they WORK really HARD too. She stressed the work hard part with eyeballs jutting out. She gave our Number 1 the reason that she has childminding problems as her mother will be due for surgery soon. Should I use an excuse abit similar to that when i resign?No lah, I prolly just blurt out the wholesome truth. 

This is crazy, I haven't had  a wink of sleep and I'll be starting work in about 2 hrs time. Work for today will be at 10am -1.30pm followed by a compulsory meeting at 2-4pm. After which, will need to attend an in-house training from 4-5.30pm. Serves me right lah! Delightful Girl Choon-Hyang more important right?! I will need REDBULL to last for today. 

I can't decide if I should quit at the end of this month or wait till the contract ends in mid-March(got some bonus!). Remy asked with there'll be any difference? He says not to think so much about the money or what others will think. But to put my health and well-being first because I too my own family to mind and care for. The post that I'm currently holding is ever replaceable. TRUE to the core, my man! 

But why is it that I do not have the courage to throw in the towel? Ever anticipate employers to counter-offer? ottoke? aiyah. don't know lar. It's 6. time to pick up my childminding-mum from her home to my place.It's tiring lah but it's for her convenience. Also trying to make up for my guilty feeling for not giving her pocket money for this month.  Talk some more later lah. gotta go. Pardon my Engrish all very the tonggang-tombalik.